Getting Personal

I am about to get really personal.  Why have a blog if you can’t use it to publicly delve into your own psyche, right?  Right?

I have felt so amazing since Ted has been born that I believe I was depressed before and I didn’t know it.  I think I didn’t realize it because I have been so lucky in my life.  I don’t have any reason to be depressed and I am generally in a pretty positive mood.  How could I not be, with a husband like Patrick?  I was going to list a bunch of things that make him so great, but then I thought of one thing that pretty much sums it up.

He has been cleaning the cat’s litterbox for over a year without complaining, even though if it were up to him we would not have pets.

The reason I think I was depressed is that I have not had this much energy since junior year of high school.  I feel like my brain has changed speeds and finally kicked into gear.

I have always had problems eating as nutritiously as I should, but since Ted was born I switched from craving sugar to craving fruit and protein.  And I am not talking about will power or something.  I just don’t want the junk food.  This is remarkable if you know me well.

I am so afraid that the ice cream might start calling me again that I have made the decision that if these positive feelings go away, I will call a doctor and get some professional help.

He’s pretty proud of himself.  I am pretty proud of him too.